Come watch "LIFE with MY FAMILY"

Brayden 6Y4M15D

Bevlynn 2Y1M9D

Would they one day tell me "Mommy, how did you do it? You were amazing!" I hope they would tell me these words. I aspire towards getting there... 

I would love for Hubs to give me more attention and also help around the house. Sometimes he would think that I can manage but I don't really like to be asking for help. If only he could jumped into every scene whenever I needed him just like the hero in the "Descendants of the Suns" helping the heroin at every moment of distress. I could only watch the movie and imagine I was the heroin.

Well~~ I have not been very patient lately too. The add-on load at work didn't help either. Now being a team lead means I have more people in the team other than myself to take care of. I am like a bomb with very short fuse, that can be triggered at any small situation. 

There's only so much I can do, and I cannot be helping everyone else all the time. Taking one day at a time helps, don't think too far ahead. Karaoke, VR with the colleagues, parties with friends. So much activities on the list. And more to come....... I need to let go a little more of my expectations. Having high expectations on everything does no good. 

This week, Brayden caught 2 legendary Pokemon in Pokemon Go. Bevlynn now says more words, she really loves swimming alot. When they are playing, I will look at them and try to remember them. If my mind wonders off, I will miss those moments, so I will always remind myself to be mindful, to be present, to concentrate and watch the movie of "LIFE WITH MY FAMILY"..

 

 

Dream Come True

Brayden 6Y4M8D

Bevlynn 2Y1M2D

I am living the dream. I used to think that retirement life would be the dream but coming to think of it, during retirement the children would both be grown-up with their own families. I might not be able to enjoy my life as I am now.

It is a lot of hard work, a lot of hustle, juggling between work and family, sometimes sweat & tears. Nevertheless, getting to come home to welcoming little voices, butterflies kisses and small warmest bear hugs. This is a dream come true. Their crying and hovering over us for comfort. Little games still make them laugh out so innocently. The small footsteps and we could still catch them. 

In a few years time, me and hubs may no longer be their heros. We may no longer be the cool parents who show them the best of the world. We may just be a bore. But until then..... we have NOW to be who we are best, THEIR LOVIEST MOMMY AND DADDY! 

Today Ava - pregnant 6 months now. she asked, how did I manage my time? I know once I come home, children is my No 1. I don't bring home work - unless when I am working from home. My time after coming home is for them. 

They are now laughing so hard behind me as I am writing this post. Ok, time to get back to our Zombie games. 

Legoland JB - Everything is AWESOME

Brayden 6Y4M5D

Bevlynn 2Y0M29D

A trip to Legoland Malaysia was memorable. We had a 3D2N stay at JB. On the first day, we went to the sea life aquarium. It was a smaller version but the indoor had air-con for us to stay away from the hot weather outside. Bev loves the fishes. 

Brayden rode on small dragon roller coaster because he was scared of the big one, learning to drive in the "car school" and go in the playground with the ball. 

Bev and Bray had chances to play in the boat, train, plane, fire-engine rides (we had to work very hard to move the fire engine to the next location and put out the fire), 4D show and farm playground. Bev was not tall enough to go on most rides. But she tried her best to kill the ninja bad guys with "hiak hiak hiak" ninja shout-out.

The house we stayed in was decorated like a circus, the children loved it. The master bedroom was like a lion's den and the childrens' bunk bed was in a tent. There were two carousel horses in the living room. 

At night time, we explore the shopping malls nearby. Paradigm mall and Sunway Big Box retail. There is a big book store (decorated like a modern library) and it has lots of children books. 

It was so much fun. The stress just melted away... 

Real work starts at home

Brayden 3Y6M27D

Bevlynn 2Y0M20D

"What is the point of giving so much of yourself to the outside world, if the family you claim is your top priority only gets your leftovers from work. Real work starts at home. So keep showing up"  

Family picnic was fun - the weather was windy and there were entertainment; singing, balloons, snacks in boxes. The children played with bubbles. How fun is it for them to catch bubbles which are so fragile and only appearing for a few seconds? Even if they had to run around over and over for hours, I don't think their batteries ever run dry. 

Father's day, we celebrated at Raffles Marina. A small pier West of Singapore. Both the children loves finding wild fishes. Holding Brayden's small hands with one hand and carrying Bevlynn on another, I wonder how long more can I do this. 

6 years is short - Never enough. I still cannot get enough of the children's part of growing. I love chasing them around as Brayden ride his bicycle and Bevlynn running about randomly. 

I have been so busy at work, sometimes I really felt there's only so many hours left I can get with the children. Sometimes I hope Hubs can help me with my frustration, but there's not much he can do either because he is also busy with work. We can only make sure we are PRESENT whenever we can; and not get too absorb with daily distractions (phones, emails.....)  

Brayden at 4 year-old

I appreciate you | I miss you

Brayden 6Y3M21D

Bevlynn 2Y0M14D

Brayden said "Mommy, you can take my S$10." 

Me "Why?" 

Brayden "Because I appreciate you. I appreciate you working very hard and give us money to eat"  

I had been working late hours and this made my heart melt. It is all worth it. 

Every night I am starting to say "I love you and I miss you, Brayden, Bevlynn" Because every day they will grow a little older and I am going to miss every part of them growing up. I have missed them now at every age of their lives; when they were 0 - 6 yrs old. These important moments, I was there with them. I love playing zombie, camp-in, story-telling, hide-&-seek...