Need more Zen | Sweet Children

Brayden 6Y11M3D

Bevlynn 2Y7M27D

At work, I have new changes. A colleague is leaving and more is added to my role as the Lead and Country Manager. I tried to not let the environment dictate my emotions, I always said I am not paid to allow my emotions to be affected by the changes. Work is just work. I will do what I could to complete the tasks at hand. 

During this time, I was reading a book "The monk who sold his Ferrari". There are many points which resonates very strongly to me; about learning to be at peace, developing oneself, how to build habits, concentrated mind. It is a moment for me to reflect because it is really difficult to prevent outbursts of anger during spur of moments - stressful times made me into a bomb with really short fuses. I needed more inflow of Zen wisdom to manage my emotions, still so much to learn. 

Brayden is really sweet, he is taking care of Bevlynn when they are at playground. She would run together with him, follow him every where he goes, and be angry at him if he make silly moves or run much faster ahead (that she could not follow). They played together and laughed together every night before going to bed. They'd fight often too... But will kiss and hug shortly afterwards. 

Brayden taught me how to play the piano. He's getting better through practice. 

Bevlynn was very sweet too. It was raining and she saw Yeh Yeh resting at a bench. She then asked him to walk back home with her, holding his hand along... 

Cats & Dogs

Brayden 6Y10M28D

Bevlynn 2Y7M21D

They are like cats and dogs. One minute playing together so well, the next both crying and being punished for making each other cry. Bev loves to take away what ever Brayden has, he likes to keep what is his instead of sharing. 

3rd week in school and Brayden already got complained from teacher - for making another classmate's eraser break into pieces. It is a small complaint but Brayden was very guilty that he didn't dare to tell us exactly what happened at school. He only cried his eyes out when we asked him about it. Well, better to learn now than much later. 

Phaik Chin - my primary school friend was here in Singapore on holiday from USA for a few days. It was more than 10 years we've not seen each other. Her son is also 4 years old now. There's so much to catch up over dim sum. Talking about who and who from high school and how those ppl achieved so much in life. I still feel very happy in my position, I have a good life, good family, a nice home. I realized there is really no need for comparison, I am living at a pace of my own, as long as I continue to grow and give, that's what matters. 

I came back and hubs told me; we should also be proud that we can have a retirement dream in 1.5 years from now. Not everyone can say the same.  That I truly agree - we are happy! 

Lovey-Dovey Moment

Brayden 6Y10M27D

Bevlynn 2Y7M20D

A colleague asked what makes you feel lovey-dovey when with your husband?

My answer? I love it when he wakes every day and give his all to our family. He's the only man in the whole who does that for us. We may not have much, I love he gave me the sense of security and stableness. I don't have to be stressed with money. 

He has been my closest companion and best confidant. No matter my good or bad, he accepts all. 

Love is when I see him playing with the two little ones; making them laugh and cry too. 

We've been together since 20 years old. That's more than 18 years ago. To live with someone that long, there's just so much memories created. Literally, gone through thick and thin, ups and downs, happy and sad, health and sickness.

I love it when he's caring and hold me close by his side. Either for late night movies on the lazy sofa, walking under the rain in the same umbrella. And when we sneak over to JB or take one day leave to spend a date by ourselves.

He gave meaning to Love and it's not just another word. 

Shopping Spree in Jewel

Brayden 6Y10M21D

Bevlynn 2Y7M14D

This is second week of Brayden primary experience. He is now experimenting a new menu which is....... FRIED RICE! Not surprise with his choice here since it is his all-time favourite. 

Bevlynn is very funny. She whispers her little secret into my ears but sometimes it gets quite loud that everyone can hear. 

I have been more conscience about my carbo and sugar intake because my blood glucose is higher level after meals. Both Brayden and Bevlynn are very sweet when they see me poke my fingers and they wanted to help wipe the blood off. Sometimes they will both sweetly say, "Oh no Mommy, is it pain?" Bevlynn will use both her hands to close her eyes to make sure she does not see the poking process as though she's scared of it. 

Hubs drove us to Changi Jewel for me to shop for CNY lucky draw for company. It was a nice ride until Bevlynn looking at me with a blank face and asked to be carried. As soon as I have her on my body, she started to vomit like a merlion, the vomit just projectile to my whole body and seat. Brayden continue to sleep next to me, unbeknownst to him the whole eventful moment. The vomit were just inches away from him. 

We continued with our shopping spree. I achieved my mission, and they had a little play at the sand playground at level 4. But, timing was running short as we needed to return home before 10pm as the car we rented cannot be renewed. Lucky thing, it was only due to no internet connection that we couldn't get the extension of rental. After we got out of Jewel, we could make an extension and the ride back home was smooth and easy. 

Brayden loves building his pillow-mattress home in our room. He wanted to sleep in it. But after he sleeps, Daddy moves him back to his proper bed. He would wake up and asked to sleep in the bed again. 

Brayden and Bevlynn loves cycling. Bray on his blue bike and Bev on her tricycle. She still don't know how to move about - More to learn. 

I had transferred my photos to a new phone and found some nice photos from when Bev is 4 days old and Brayden is 4 years old. 

First Week of 2024

Brayden 6Y10M14D

Bevlynn 2Y7M7D

The night before P1 first day, Brayden could not sleep and talked to Mommy about what to expect in school. He saw the menu for canteen and said that "I'll only eat spaghetti every single day because it is my favourite" I told him to try more variety and he said "I'll only have western food then". 

On 2nd Jan 2024, Brayden attended P1 First Day with Mommy and Daddy. There was orientation, eating in the canteen and ball games with parents. It was a fun and exciting first day. Brayden went to Student Care afterwards. 

On second day of school, he already walked in on his own, confidently, without fear. And guess what, the whole week he was only having macaroni soup - Nothing else. 

Bevlynn is now in N2, she now needs to learn the new spot for her water bottle and class. And she kept forgetting. She was also excited to see Mommy peeking at her from school window. This little girl is turning 3 soon. She's learnt more new speech. "What is this~~? (sarcastic tone)", "What happen, Mommy" "Why?". She's getting more curious, and a fast learner she is too. 

Me and Hubs are getting a nice start to 2024. We enjoyed our daily dose of early morning coffee with lovely conversation. Pouring words of encouragement and support for each other. Albeit 2024 is going to be a tougher year, it is comforting to do this as a constant reminder of our life goals and this provides us enough courage to face any challenges that would come.

My glucose level has been spiking on and off recently. I am starting to be more cautious with my food intake. I will have to work out more and eat less sugary food. Fighting!! 

 

 

2024 start

New year Resolution

• Have Sharp Focus of Real Life Goals for our Family to achieve our retirement target goals.

• To enjoy more time with the children as they grow, 7 yr-old and 3yr-old are important age to build their character

• Lesser conflict at work; Work is only a mode to get to Life Goal and do not need to be too ambitious to deliver and overdo

• Take more good care of health, exercise every morning to bring down the blood sugar

• Spend more time with Hubby

• Be Happy and Free Mental from Clutters (Turning Negative to Positive)

• Make easier transition to P1 primary for Brayden 

2023

 Summary of 2023