Brotherly and Sisterly Love

Brayden 6Y4M28D

Bevlynn 2Y1M22D

Both of the children are down with HFMD. They could not go to school and so they had stayed home together and played. It was nice to be able to have them have fun together. Bev always love to follow what Bray wants to do; a train sound, the loud voice, the climbing up and down the bed. being punished on the mat, running around, hide and seek.  

Hubs was not in Singapore this week. He was assigned to Phuket for work. I had to make it a point to come home earlier to be able to spend more time with the children; but work gets piled up like a mountain now. It is a bit tough to work and focus on my children. 

I would really hope one day I can spend even more time with the children. I realised how tall Bev & Bray are now... They will be out of my arms someday... Now that both the children still asked to sleep with me on the same bed, I let them. I let them be kids, they played with the rain, picked up mud and insects. Reminds me of the good times when we were once children. 

Sometimes I get too nervous about the children. Although I'd say it is alright, all we have done is good, sometimes I will push myself to do more for them... I can't help it. Just like the other day, I prayed to the temples, scout around the neighbourhood primary school, make donations; in the hope for Brayden to get into the good school near to us. And that very night after done all these, Hubs told me he received some good news on the primary school appeal letter. 

Next week will be Brayden's P1 Registration. It was very stressful and nerve-wreaking. His Daddy and me did what we could. Hope everything will fall into place for Brayden nicely. 

How did I get so lucky?

Brayden 6Y4M24D

Bevlynn 2Y1M18D

Bevlynn is down with HFMD. Rashes pop up all over her body and ulcers in her mouth. She has been crying alot. I had bought her a little doll, her little baby. She loves the baby; putting her to bed, blanket on, feeding her, combing her hair. 

It is a month full of anxiety. Brayden is to be enrolled to a primary school. The competition is high. There is only so much we can do for him. He's really good at his piano. Now he does not need the score and he can play a full song. His favourite music "Be a man from Mulan", he's learning to play it on the piano too. He woke up very early one day and ran with me in the morning. He can run even faster than me in fact. I love his company.  

I get butterflies in my stomach when they uttered "I love you Mommy" softly in their sleepy soft tender voice. Right before they sleep and I start to miss them for the day.... 

In every parents eyes, their children are perfect. How did I get so lucky? 

They are a "gift made from heaven" to me and my husband. I see so much resemblance of them with me and my soulmate. 

My Soulmate?  

He is the one who accepted and believed in me before everyone else does. He's my best friend, my camaraderie. He has given me happiness through my children, by making my surrounding secured and safe, giving what I want and need always. He has taken care of his family as well as mine. 

I hope I give him the same happiness when he thinks of me. 

(If you are reading this, I LOVE YOU BEY 💓)

 

Come watch "LIFE with MY FAMILY"

Brayden 6Y4M15D

Bevlynn 2Y1M9D

Would they one day tell me "Mommy, how did you do it? You were amazing!" I hope they would tell me these words. I aspire towards getting there... 

I would love for Hubs to give me more attention and also help around the house. Sometimes he would think that I can manage but I don't really like to be asking for help. If only he could jumped into every scene whenever I needed him just like the hero in the "Descendants of the Suns" helping the heroin at every moment of distress. I could only watch the movie and imagine I was the heroin.

Well~~ I have not been very patient lately too. The add-on load at work didn't help either. Now being a team lead means I have more people in the team other than myself to take care of. I am like a bomb with very short fuse, that can be triggered at any small situation. 

There's only so much I can do, and I cannot be helping everyone else all the time. Taking one day at a time helps, don't think too far ahead. Karaoke, VR with the colleagues, parties with friends. So much activities on the list. And more to come....... I need to let go a little more of my expectations. Having high expectations on everything does no good. 

This week, Brayden caught 2 legendary Pokemon in Pokemon Go. Bevlynn now says more words, she really loves swimming alot. When they are playing, I will look at them and try to remember them. If my mind wonders off, I will miss those moments, so I will always remind myself to be mindful, to be present, to concentrate and watch the movie of "LIFE WITH MY FAMILY"..

 

 

Dream Come True

Brayden 6Y4M8D

Bevlynn 2Y1M2D

I am living the dream. I used to think that retirement life would be the dream but coming to think of it, during retirement the children would both be grown-up with their own families. I might not be able to enjoy my life as I am now.

It is a lot of hard work, a lot of hustle, juggling between work and family, sometimes sweat & tears. Nevertheless, getting to come home to welcoming little voices, butterflies kisses and small warmest bear hugs. This is a dream come true. Their crying and hovering over us for comfort. Little games still make them laugh out so innocently. The small footsteps and we could still catch them. 

In a few years time, me and hubs may no longer be their heros. We may no longer be the cool parents who show them the best of the world. We may just be a bore. But until then..... we have NOW to be who we are best, THEIR LOVIEST MOMMY AND DADDY! 

Today Ava - pregnant 6 months now. she asked, how did I manage my time? I know once I come home, children is my No 1. I don't bring home work - unless when I am working from home. My time after coming home is for them. 

They are now laughing so hard behind me as I am writing this post. Ok, time to get back to our Zombie games.