Who am I?

When asked this question, I scrabble to find the defining word. Can one word truly represent a person and her life?


LEARNER
If there is one word I could choose, this would be it. I find myself after so many years of living I am still learning. There is no end to it. Learning to be a daughter, sister, mother and wife. There are many wonders in life not discovered and terrains unexplored. I wonder if a lifetime is enough to learn all the wisdom of life. All I can do is to take baby steps to enrich my knowledge.
I am curious at how some can learn to reach great heights of success. Do these successful people still question who they are? Perhaps not. Maybe I will turn out to be like them someday.


I hope my capacity to learn continues to expand endlessly and the fire of curiosity within me burns intensely until the very last day of my life.


This is who I am today and forever will be.

I clicked PAUSE for a moment of reflection

I am on hospitalization leave for two weeks.
During this time, there is a moment to PAUSE in the forward flowing time and so much reflection of life has taken place.

What is life to me? to all of us?

I lost a beautiful young one 2 weeks ago. One that I barely got to touch in my hands, one that could not open the eyes to see this world as it is now.
The year is 2020. It is the year that started with so much headlines on the coronavirus spreading like a silent wildfire in the dryest forest. We cannot see the spread but we can feel the damages to wherever it crosses path. It is such a devastating state; fear, starvation, joblessness, pain, deaths all around the world at a much faster speed. It surely is not a nice sight to be coming to a world at this time.

We are asked to stay home.
This is the time to appreciate the luxury of family time, to place priorities on what is needed over what is wanted.

I had time to finish 3 good reads. One about not worrying during the darkest lowest moments, One about never fearing to make a change because the comfort of staying the same is the riskiest step, One about the secrets and mantras of life. 
All three gave me a good look at where I am now in life and how I want to move forward. I need a RESET after this PAUSE. That's where I will start - to make a small positive change everyday until it creates a ripple effect to my surroundings.